I NEED YOU MORE

so I'm listening to the song "i need you more" song by Kim Walker of jesus culture. sitting at Starbucks listening to this song, and I got an image of someone soaking wet from the presence of God. someone that is dripping with the tangible liquid love of our MAKER. can you imagine carrying that with you everyday, every minute, every second...the liquid love of our CREATOR. what an awesome gift He has given us, His very presence. The fact that people whether they are a believer or not can recognize the carriers of our SAVIORS liquid love.

I pray that in my own life I can be a carrier of His liquid love, not the temporary I'm only gonna do it cause it benefits me. BUT the real, authentic, pure, no-strings attached LOVE that God has called ALL of us to extend to EVERYONE. God I thank you that there is no limit to your love, that there is freedom, grace, acceptance, guidance, truth and wholeness in your LOVE.

so with that being said

more than the air i breathe, more than the song i sing, more than anything...

I NEED YOU MORE

PROMOTING because thats what has to done...

So like Ive said in my past post, Ive been creating. Being more intentional about making and promoting and letting the world know.

Anyhoo, here is an update to what has been recently listed. I've added some photos below, but I would love for you all to stop by the shop, and share with your friends and all you know.

THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!!!!



welcome plaque



black and cream clutch



april showers watercolor print

im being featured

I've been working on trying to promote my etsy site, and website and i think its working :)

Today I'm being featured on Coconut Palm Design, so hopefully it creates more exposure to my artwork. So excited!!!!

here's a link

COCONUT PALM DESIGNS

grow-up

So its been a while, and when I say a while I mean 9 months since I've posted something.

and now let me unload, upload, download...share whats been going on

I've been busy...getting organized, figuring out what I want for my life, hanging out, loving people, being myself.

BUSY...

I have always had a passion for art, and creating but I never really had the confidence to share what I did or even think that I could make a living out of it. But like I said before I've been busy getting organized and figuring out what I want for my life, and what I want is to be an artist, and make my living with it. So I have been painting and exploring and seeing where it takes me and allowing God to give me more vision for this passion that I have inside of me. Its been fun and scary all at the same time, sharing my art is like a exposing a part of myself that I keep hidden. 9 months of formulating something amazing, 9 months of allowing my insecurities to be dealt with, 9 months of exploring, and 9 months of saying yes to my passion.

Now on this side of the 9 months I have established my very on website MONELLISA and I opened up an etsy shop selling my prints and other artwork. and I'm EXCITED

I'm looking forward to more creativity, exploring, more yielding to God to allow me to go deeper with this passion...MORE

trusting in him...

i've been chewing on a particular verse, and its been amazingly-great! jesus!

...so here it is...

trust in the Lord with ALL your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in ALL your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight.

proverbs 3:5-6

so God has completely wrecked my understanding of ALL...you see this small word holds such measure, such weight, such responsiblity...and im just gonna say it my ALL is hard...I have so many questions, so many thoughts, so many insecurities, so many doubts, so many things keeping me from really, fully, wholehearterly surrendering the ALL and saying God i trust that you are going to make my path straight. God i trust that you know what is best, and i don't have to fully understand that to move, to wait, to trust, to be who you have called me to be.

so yea, God i thank you for that revelation; that i can breathe with a freedom in knowing as im leaning on you; you are allowing my path to align to what you call straight.

something new...

yesterday i decided to mess around on the keyboard for a little bit, and this is what came of it...ENJOY!

1,2,3 JUMP...

1, 2, 3 JUMP...1, 2, 3 READY SET...here i come, I jump into you...(adam cates)


So last week at girls group one of the leaders spoke about prophecy and what that looked like, and how God can use it in many different forms. And once the discussion was finished we had a time to active what we talked about and learned. For me this wasn't too hard, but then again its something that I always tend to over analyze and just really question if its my own thoughts or JESUS.

We paired off and just started praying for our partners. I didn't really get anything revelational, at least not in my opinion but I shared. Then my partner (Rachel) began to share what she felt like the Lord was showing her for me.

"I just hear the word PASSIONATE, and not the superficial passionate that you see from the outside, but a pure PASSION from within."

I thought cool, I feel like I'm at that point with the Lord...not wanting to play games...just wanting his heart.

She proceeded...

"Its night and the stars are out, and you are walking. Walking towards this cliff, and then...you jump...I don't really know what you are jumping into, but you jump"

I was like oh great suicide...ya! not really...but REALLY! God, I'm jumping off a cliff? What does that mean? Where are we going with this? Is there any significance or what? I didn't really think much of what my Rachel told me when i left girls group that night, but that Lord has a funny way of bringing things back. But God.

So I'm reading this book on desperate women of the bible, and it just so happen the same week Rachel shared this image of me jumping off a cliff, i get to the chapter of a women who was so desperate it was like she was jumping off a cliff...yea i know God you are funny! This gave new insight to what Rachel told me, and made me really just examine what she said again. Yes i am passionate about the Lord, and I am passionate about the things he is doing in and through me, but am I willing to trust him and JUMP? am i willing to say "I'm ready to jump...i trust you JESUS!" I think so, I don't want to be at the edge of the cliff wondering if it will hurt to jump. At the edge waiting for something to come and carry me to the other side. That's not what he wants either, he wants everything, all of me...the willingness to say I'm ready and i don't care what is at the bottom.


here are some lines from the book I'm reading:
Desperate living requires risk, surrender, yielding all that you have in hopes that it will somehow be good enough. It is jumping off a cliff, hoping you will land on something soft, something that doesn't break you completely. Something that does not swallow you alive. But if it does, well, it does.

...a woman who was jumping off a cliff, clinging to the simple and frail hope that she might land on something soft-if she landed at all.

He was about to jump off a cliff, knowing nothing was going to break his fall. Nothing, this is, but the object of his devotion, of his sacrifice. Of his love.

she is my true love...

I was listening to a song by Laura Woodley the other day and all I really want to say is WOW! It’s a song about how we see our relationship with the Lord. But in the midst of the junk and dirt He sees beauty; He wants us, He chooses us, His beautiful brides

You saw me broken
You saw me battered

You saw me filthy

You saw me shattered

You saw me wicked

You saw me lying

You saw me failing

You saw me trying

You saw me angry

You saw me jealous

You saw me prideful

You saw me selfish

You saw me wonder

You saw me lustful

You saw me striving

Worshipping idols

I want her

I love her

She’s the one for me

I choose her

I know her
She is my true love
Bring her to me

Put a ring on her finger

Clothe her in my righteousness

Shine my light all around her

Place a crown upon her head

Keep her tears in a bottle

See her name upon my hands

When she says: I don’t deserve it

Tell her: I took the nails instead

I took the nails instead

After hearing the song, I decided to create a painting! Around the outside of the canvas has lines from the beginning of the song, and in the center of the painting is God's response to how he see us..."I want her..." And the awesome thing is that after printing it out the words on the paper it resembled a dress; which lead me to make the center of the painting a dress. A beautiful dress, set apart for His beautiful bride.

your love came in...

so this is a song that God gave me while I was on vacation
this past christmas. its one of my favorites, and really just shows me how much
God desires to restore and to love.

I was lost I could not see,
the darkness covered me.
my heart was cold i felt so alone.

but your love came in and filled me up
when your love comes in i'm built up

i once was broken, but now there's you,
and youre picking me up.
all my hopes, joys and dreams,
they are now redeemed.

but your love came in and filled me up
when your love comes in i'm being built up

always doubting left and right,
but now you're by my side, you're by my side.
no longer bound by the lies there's truth in your eyes,
and thats where i want to be.

when your love crept in,
and you tore me apart,
restoring my heart.

cause your love came in and filled me up
when your love comes in im being built up.

now my joy is complete,
cause you're livin in me,
deep, deep, deep within.

Spring is coming...

This past Friday evening I went to my churches women of radiance banquet. To be honest I went because I was asked if I would be interested in displaying some of my artwork. And so I saw this as opportunity for me to get people to see what I have done, and see the talents of other women. But of course God just didn't want that to be my only reason. I mean that would be too simple, come to a banquet display my work, eat some amazing dessert and listen to some special women share. Too simple for God.

So let me just start by saying that the theme for the night was seasons, the different seasons we encounter with our walk with the Lord. My sister and I were looking over the different seasons and what they generally bring into our lives. And of course when I read winter, I was like "Yea, that’s def. where I'm at right now...a season of reflection" and I also made the comment, "I can't wait for spring, a season of impartation" and I just left it alone. The evening started with a light hearted skit about WOMAN. Then we had time to fellowship and share with the women at our table. This was great. This lasted for about 20 minutes, and was then transitioned into the sharing of the different seasons. This is where God rocked me.

Spring was the first season to be shared; the lady got up and started talking. She started by giving the definition of spring (new, growth, to come up, fresh)...all things a person would naturally associate with spring. She then proceeded to share about her life during this season, and then gave three different people who are processing spring (the leftover, the wallflower, and the broken one). At that very moment I just was like wow! God what is happening, my emotions started to well up and I could feel a bawl inside of me that needed to spring forth. But because I didn't want people looking at me I held it in. At the same time trying to process where the emotions were coming from. At the close of this ladies testimony she shared a line from a song that encouraged the spring season of her life "wallflower come dance with me, leftover you’re just what I need, broken one you will be my queen" again the tears wanted to gush from my eyes, but I held it in.

As I started to process my emotions, I was like God this must just be me being emotional. The next season to share was summer, but I didn’t have the same emotional high as I did for spring. And I didn’t really think anything of it. They then transitioned into a worship dance done to the song “every season” by Nicole Nordeman. The song went through the different seasons, and it was just beautiful. Then the same emotions I had encountered during the sharing of the season of spring happened again. “and everything that’s new, has bravely surfaced teaching us to breathe what was frozen through, is newly purposed turning all things green, so it is with you and how you make me new.” These lines sparked that emotional overflow of tears. And again I was just like God where is this coming from why tonight, why here, why? But again I refrained from crying and letting that emotion get the best of me.

Autumn and winter spoke and I was fine, nothing sparked me. Nothing really at that point shook me like spring. So I was just like ok, what is it about spring, what do you want me to know. And on the car ride home I asked God what he wanted me to know, what he was doing in me, why I was so overly captivated by the season of spring. And he responded with, “spring is coming” That was all I needed to hear, once that happened I had such a peace. And I was like,”ok God.” Spring is coming…don’t know what it looks like, but I think I’m ready.